Post #1 (1.08.20)
Well... I leave the country in 2 weeks. I have never been so scared and excited for something in my entire life. I have always wanted to travel, and did it a lot as a kid. However, in the last couple years I have been struggling with anxiety every day. I get anxiety doing anything out of my normal routine. I suddenly felt like I couldn't do things that I have always been able to do. I never thought I would be uncomfortable and unconfident doing a hike I did regularly as a five year old, but anxiety is a weird thing. I've been experiencing it for a couple years, and it still doesn't make sense to me. Even if I don't fully understand it, I'm not going to let it limit me from things I've dreamed of anymore. There have been so many times in the last few months that I didn't think that I could possibly study abroad. But I'm going to. Time to go start packing.